the beginnin...

elo...
a life-less ordinary begins today...and it sure does begin on a sad note...da more tht one tries to keep things simple they just come crashin down...rather its like splat in ur face...as i sit here i cant help but think...i know think let my mind wander off into places tht i thought i had dealt wid or moved away from...its at times like these tht it really does get to me ...da fact tht im livin a life which is ahh a convinent lie...too scared to face my deamons...forget what da world has to say...i go thru my days laughin bout simple things,enjoyin simple pleasures appearin all held together nd strong...wen da reality is tht i happen to be sittin here all by myself...i mite be earning my livin rather handsomely...mite be enjoyin all the pleasures tht life offers...but i feel tired exhausted...its like i hv this duty to be strong and all together...like i cant breakdown and cry...its this feelin tht actually gets me down...no matter how much i mite try just cant shake this feelin tht it doesnt all rest on my shoulders...i know one thing tht i cant even frame my thoughts together ...one read and this is evident in my work...MAYBE TMRW WOULD BE A DIFFERENT STORY...yup could be...